~echoing-radiance

I'm not back per-se...but I've been too lazy to start my new account yet, so I've been logging in on this one to see all the DAS stuff XDDD srsly, with the amount of trouble that fucking account has been, you'd think I'd give it up~

In any case, I am rather pissy at the moment, though I pride myself in having a backup plan, aka YOUR HOME PHONE NUMBER. srsly though, I doubt you've been on much lately anyway; prolly too busy getting abused by your ex, right~?

In any case, I will be making a new account eventually. Anyone who wants a link when I do make it should just leave a comment, though I doubt I'll have many takers after my loverly note of "I HATE CHUU! Ah quit, biatches! *emo*" that I left last time. I do have a reason for it, and I don't regret losing my artwork and everything on my ff.net account because of it. One of my greatest relationships is -or was, I don't know what it is right now...maybe in limbo...- over.

It's more or less to the point a major relief, though it saddens me greatly... I do not see me getting into any better relationships, nor do I see myself getting into anymore close friendships at all, anymore. I lost two friends over the same thing...and despite the fact that one I have no reason to mourn over, the other was something I wanted to keep. I may still have a chance at it though, and right now, I spose that's what counts :3

In any case, I apologise to those who actually still like me. I was being an immature brat (like anything's changed XP) and though I don't regret getting rid of this account, I will regret the friends and advisors I may have lost in my fit of insanity.

Ja ne lovelies~

Permanent. :3

I wish I could say I'll miss you all, but I won't. If you don't have my email addy by now, then you obviously weren't that important.

I hope you all continue on with your art anyway

I NEED A BETA!!!! XDDDD

Daemon-in-white is my current beat, but...her mom found out what she was reading and she's currently banned from msn/hotmail/internet for life. I LOVE YOU DAE-MAMA BUT I NEED A BETA!!!

See, I currently have in my hot lil hands the prologue to my new story that has no name yet. The JakxDax one. And it's just over fourteen pages long. >>;;;

I'm good at beta-ing my own stuff, but everyone misses stuff. So I'mma looking for a beta who understands both American and European spelling on stuff (you know, like "color" is spelled "colour" sometimes and stuff like that) just so I've got two pairs of eyes reading it over and making sure I didn't make a complete cock-up of everything. xP I do that often~

So yeah, a beta. A good beta who can beta as soon as they get my email and send it back as soon as they're finished beta-ing. An amazing beta like that.

Anybody wanna volunteer/suggest someone? :beg:

Nyaa, first things first; avatar rocks. o_________o *got the first dvd this afternoon* It's all kiddy and funny n stoof but at the same time the plot is unfreakin believable and whilst not actually showing tonnes of death and destruction they show enough for it to actually be serious in the moments it's supposed to be. And Aang's cute for a baldie. >w< *pounces Aang*

Ooh, and I'm spazzmically addicted to JakxDaxter now, so I'mma writing a fanfiction for it! Dunno what I'm call it yet, but it's coming along real good :'D

And I've also started my Original story currently known as "Knocking Down Satan's Door". Tis what Rue's in and it's FOON! 8B Did I mention how much of a smart but very violent person Rue is? She's such a fun character to write. I luffs her so, and Addie's cool too, I spose. *shrugs* ....Rue's betta! xDDDD

Gah, I dunno...I've been feeling really dirty lately...for good reason too. It's been going on for a couple of weeks but somehow it sorta...after everything that's been done to me, it's...never thought it could be, but it's...bearable. It makes me feel sick and disgusting and if anyone ever knew I'd curl up and die, but at the same time, it's sorta a slap in the face. One of my greatest fears has happened, and I don't have to be scared of it anymore. Because I've found out it's bearable...at least to the extent I'm being exposed to. And I don't think I'll be exposed to any more; somehow that fucking bastard is smart enough to know that even I've gotta draw the line between hiding stuff cause I'm disgusting for it and telling for my own safety. So I know it won't get outta hand... I hope not...

Anyway, I go to Hikari's vereh vereh soon, and I won't have to worry about it there! And I go to my Di's on the weekends so no problem there, either!

And ya know what? I've realized that I actually do love someone in my family. My granpa. :3 Di ish teh awesomest grandad in the world...he actually cares about me. It's just so...amazing. One of my family members loves me and doesn't hurt me and it's just really really nice to know I love them back.

Neway, peace out; I'mma go write some more~

Fuck you Envy. >< Wake me up at a decent hour next time; 5:30 ain't decent!!!!


1. How does the world see me?
The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage- Panic! At The Disco (…I’m an idiot who keeps doing suicide and it may/may not be mistaken a heroism? Sounds like me~)

2. Will I have a happy life?
Valentine’s Day- Linken Park (…..no….no I’m not, apparently….o_____o;;;; )

3. What do people really think of me?
Helena- My Chemical Romance (I’m a bitch who breaks hearts and dies. x3;;; )

4. How am I feeling today?
Need You Baby- Britney Spears (…I want to be noticed? Like a failure? Dependant? *blinks*)

5. Do people secretly lust after me?
7 Years And 50 Days- Cascada (….I’ll take that as a yes. For a very long time .____.;;; )

6. How can I make myself happy?
Give ‘Em Hell Kid- My Chemical Romance (…oh I intend to >3)

7. What's my best trait?
Angel Of Darkness- Alex C. (I’mma always stand and fight. :3)

8. What should I do with my life?
Anthem Of Our Dieing Day- (wander round the earth, finding a certain person because I wanna scream in their face that we’re all gonna die. xDDDD)

9. Will I ever have children?
Cancer- My Chemical Romance (….I’ll take that as a no. D

10. What is some good advice for me?
On the way down- ??? (Whoever saves me from myself, hang onto em.)

11. What do I think my current theme song is?
Grand Theft Autumn/Where Is Your Boy?- Fall Out Boy (WHOOP! You need him; I could him. I could be insensitive but I’m still trying! Which is more than I can say for him~)

12. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Ever The Same- Rob Thomas (oh yus, fall on meh~ Seriously, only my friends. o___o)

13. What is my crush's current theme song?
London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines- Panic! At The Disco (Take a chance and don’t be afraid to be yourself despite all the criticism; she doesn’t need to learn that~)

14. What does everyone else think my crush's current theme song is?
It Ends Tonight- All American Rejects (…that should just be her theme song anyway! >< It goes well enough!)

15. What is my enemy's current theme song?
Gone- (yes, I hate shuu. Fuck off. :3)

16. What does everyone else think my enemy's current theme song is?
You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison?- My Chemical Romance (*snackles* SHUUR SOMEONE’S BITCHES! NYAAHA!)

17. What is my best friend's current theme song?
It’s Not Your Fault- Scream Till It Hurts (well, it isn’t. D

18. What does everyone else think my best friend's current theme song is?
I Don’t Feel Like Dancin- Scissor Sisters (…wtf is this song doing on my mp3?!?!?)

19. What song will play at my funeral?
What I’ve Done- Linken Park (In this farewell, there’s no blood, there’s no alibi~)

20. If I had a superpower it would be:
This Ain’t A Scene, It’s An Arms Race- Fall Out Boy (I’mma be the in the middle hero who makes everyone get drunk and trash people’s houses. :3)

21. What is my week going to be like?
Why Should I care- Avril Lavigne (Yes, why should I care? o_____o)
22. Why am I here?
Take It All Away- The Used (To be an emo little shit who lets someone kill her. :3)

23. What will people remember me for?
The Ghost Of You- My Chemical Romance (…yup, I’mma die in a heroically suicidal way. And looks like Hikari dies before me.)

24. What will I never give up?
Someday- Nickelback (my hopes and dreams…

25. What is high school like?
Long Live The Car Crash Hearts- Fall Out Boy (cry on the couch all the poets come to life! xDD)

26. What is the best thing about your friends?
Attention!- Mayumi Yamaguchi and some random chibi (xDDD they’re cute and make me laugh and join in the idiocy~)

27. What will this year be all about?
This Is How I Disappear- My Chemical Romance. (…nu, dun leave meh! D: )

28. If I reached the top of Mount Everest, I would scream:
A Never Ending Dream- Cascada (…no comment x3)

29. My motto is:
Stand My Ground` Within Temptation (DAMN FUCKING STRAIGHT!!!!)

30. The next time you stand up in front of a group of people, you'll say:
Over My Head (Cable Car)- The Fray (…I have someone on my mind and my life is ruined? *blinks*…man, I just meant to do my English assignment…>>;;; )

31. Your message to the world:
Dare You To Move- Switchfoot (Be inda-fuckin-vidual you pussies! Or I’mma EAT shuu! D:< )

32. Your deepest secret:
Better Off Alone (…hell, the fact that I think people would be better off not knowing me is not a secret. xDDD)

33. Your innermost desire:
When Angels Kiss- Lasgo (….to learn to fly? *blinks)

34. Your deepest fear:
Hurt-Christina Agulaira (….I be a bitch and she dies/disappears. D: )

35. Your oldest memory makes you think:
Let Me Apologize- Linken Park (…wtf? That isn’t the oldest memory I have! ><

36. What do you need most?
Dirty Little Secret- All American Reject (…>3)

37. What song will play at my wedding?
Victims Of Love- Good Charlotte (….xDDD;;; bad song choice in my opinion, but meh. In the beginning, I tried to warn you. You play with fire, it’s gonna burn you~)

38. How is your life going?
Hum Hallelujah- Fall Out Boy (xDDD dunno how to explain this one~)

39. How will you die?
Perfect- Simple Plan (….apologizing that I wasn’t good enough. D: )

40. Right now, your feelings are:
Savior- 30 Seconds To Mars (…*blinks* wow, I’m still angry?)

41. The day you fall in love will be the day that:
Something Else- (I realize I can’t have them. D: )

42. What does my family really think of me?
Work- Jimmy Eats World (…that I don’t let anyone in and I’m having an affair with someone xDDDDD)

43. Your farewell message:
Until The Day I Die- Story Of The Year (….uh…>>;;; )